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Our Little Golfer

Jarrod went to San Diego for a week the next to last week in July. While he was there, he went to Torrey Pines to look around and got Logan a golf ball. So, when Logan got his ball, he immediately wanted to play golf. We kind of looked at each other and I was like, okay go get one of my clubs for him to play with...neither of us thought of the fact that Logan's a leftie, but we were able to improvise and he just turned my club around. He has his own plastic clubs that he's always used and he loves them, but we were amazed at how well he played with the "real" club and balls. He hit the ball 80% of the time and he was hitting to the fence (in our half an acre yard!) We're constantly amazed at the little athlete we have. Pops came over last week and watched him play. This week, he brought Logan a youth leftie club--thank you, Pops!!!

Baby Shower

My friends at church hosted a wonderful baby shower July 20 at my friend Ashley's house. It was a wonderful, productive weekend! My aunt Mendy was in town that weekend for a visit and she helped nudge me to get the nursery 98% done...it was such a great visit with her!!! Logan was adorable with her--if only I had gotten pictures of the 100 books he made her read to him over the weekend. She retired this year from teaching elementary school and I think Logan knows a great story reader when he finds one!!! Aunt Mendy didn't get to stay for the shower, but I wanted to post a few photos of the shower...I'll post the nursery pictures soon...

I had to post this so that you can see how skinny my mom is getting!! Doesn't she look great!!!

I love this picture of Raegan with me!!!

Coleman's and Oliverio's Visit

The Coleman's and Oliverio's came over to watch the All Star Game in July when they were in town for a teacher conference! What a nice surprise to get to see them! It was so fun to see the kids together!

Gabe Spends the Night

Logan had Gabe spend the night in early July. It was so much fun for all of us. We met at Chick-Fil-A and let the boys play, brought them home to play, settled down to a little bit of a movie and then put the boys to bed. Gabe did great--he cried a little at bedtime and we realized later it was because I didn't know that he's allowed to sleep with a car in his hand at home and I wouldn't let him sleep with one for fear that the boys would spend the night "racing". Oops! What a great first sleepover!

Just 4 weeks away

Well, it dawned on me today that at this time in 4 short weeks, we will be holding little Miss Nameless. Its hard to believe that we are this close...my how the time has flown by. I'm feeling it...Logan's feeling it...really I think that everyone around me is feeling it and wondering if I'll ever have this baby and hopefully calm myself down again!

I can't say that I'm 100% excited--I actually debated whether I should post at all for fear that little one will one day be reading this and thinking...thanks a lot, Mom! I am excited to meet her, I am excited to see her little face and to hold her little body. I'm excited to see Jarrod with her as he is the greatest father and I can't wait to be touched by all of those precious moments that they will have together. I can't wait to see Logan with her, but I fear so much that she will rock his little world so much that it will be too much for him to handle...and thus too much for me to handle. I think that the fears of raising a daughter are so completely different than the fears of raising a son. I felt and still feel SUCH a sense of resounding responsibility for making Logan into a "man." Raising him to above all love God, to be loyal, to be courageous, to be a leader, to be gentle when necessary but to still stand up for his beliefs...raising him to be a wonderful husband and a loving father. I think I'm at a loss about raising a girl. I know that above all I want her to love God. I want her to be strong, but submissive. I want her to know what it is like to have people in her life that love her, but I want it to be okay for her when everyone around doesn't. I don't really know how to teach that and its so hard for us girls when we aren't surrounded by people who love us. I know that I will have to be more careful than ever with my every move and that she will look to me as the example of a christian woman, a mother, a wife, a friend. I think that the level of responsibility is the same, but its still so different of a task laid before me. It scares me to death...and yet, I feel so honored that God is giving me the opportunity to help mold this little life into His image.

Bravery??

I think that days like today are what make mothering difficult. All of those things that I want Logan to be sometimes make me feel like a failure as a mother. Logan is the "safety" child. He wants to do everything, but his little heart gets so "scared" when he tries. I don't understand it and frankly right now I don't have a lot of patience for it. A few weeks ago we met some friends at a waterpark and Logan just freaked out about part of it. He refused to even go down the smallest baby slides for fear of water dumping on his head. He didn't even want the water spraying him at all. (yes, this child does play in the sprinkler at home...go figure...) I lost my patience and the day was difficult to say the least--but we trudged through it and he is asking to go back (Daddy's turn next, which will be fine because its a lot easier to be brave with Daddy for some reason.)

Today, we went to "Pump it Up" of all places and he spent twenty minutes crying his little eyes out about going down a small slide (he was stuck in a part that the only way out--down the slide). Now mind you, he has gone down slides like this before with no problems. He's shown no fear of "bounce houses" in the past, but this summer seems to be making him digress. I sit and think, how in the world can I teach him to be brave...especially at 35 weeks pregnant, with no patience and no ability to just climb in and talk him through it. I think that I'm about to chunk that lesson out the window at least until I'm recouperated enough to do it right...